2002-08-28
1:12 p.m.
the disadvantage of being seen and being blinded
Eesh, I'm moving to Halifax on Saturday. I have clothes to darn, shoeglue, trackpants, and new runners to buy, laundry to hang on the line, friends and family to see, lust to quell, decisions to decide. And then I'll be there, and I'll have to buy furniture, buy books, start learning again, clean out a not-too-dirty (fingers crossed) apartment, pretend I'm on top of things. In a way, it would've been better to have left a week ago. I wouldn't have the dilemma I am currently faced with, and I would've had more time in summer-Halifax. So often, I just want to settle down somewhere and feel permanent. That's a stupid thing to wish for at 22, though, especially since wander- is among the lusts I have. Having a head-to-toe blush this week has shocked me out of my contentment, has reminded me that I like living in a world of possibility. I keep checking my email, to figure out if I'm living with the possibilities I hope. I just hope you're looking as long as I did
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